Sunday, September 26, 2010

Today I Am Missing You

My Dear Sweet Baby,

Today my heart aches to be near you. I have never felt your chubby fingers grasp my own. I have never gotten the chance to breathe in your sweet smell as I kiss the top of your soft head. I've never snuggled you close or rocked you to sleep. My heart does not yet know the melody of your laughter or the pain of your tears. Someday we will share all of these things. Someday I will look deep into your eyes and we will both somehow know of the journey it took for us to be together.

I long for that day. I wait patiently, desperately. I pray fervently for that day to come soon. There are days that my pain is unbearable. The emptiness I feel that only your giggles will heal overwhelms me. Some nights I awake to my own outstretched arms, reaching out to you, but never touching you.

I know our eyes have never met on this earth, our hands have never touched, but today I miss you as if we had been together for an eternity and suddenly you were gone.


Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing this. It touched me. A lot. My prayers are with you.

WannaBeMommy said...

So many of us know this, or will know this. I have not been actively trying long, but had a doctor tell me when I was 16 that getting pregnant would be nearly impossible. Now I know that isn't true, but I can't tell you how many nights I have had like this one.