Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Stuck in the Cabin

So, it's been a bit. Sorry I haven't been posting as normally as I should. Hubby's comp is in the toilet and until we win the lottery, my computer has become his gaming station.

I looked forward to summer for most of the last month of school. I was excited to be free of the crazy politics and mind games going on at our school. It was a pretty picture to think of floating in the pool every afternoon and taking a much needed break.

Every year I do the same thing. I get excited about it. It finally gets here. I clear my books the first few days and make a big deal out of getting some much needed r and r. A week later, I'm ready to go back. I'm not an idle person. I don't like being without routine or structure.

The past few summers have been pretty simple. I was so focused on having a baby, that I hardly noticed the days fly by. I counted weeks and temps. I wasn't concerned about getting bored. This summer, only a couple of weeks in, and already I'm getting cabin fever. I'm cranky and frustrated. I'm out of books and sharing a comp with a gaming fanatic makes it worse.

In March, we hit a road block with our baby plans. We have to step back and regroup for a while. At first, I felt much like I do the last month of school. I was overjoyed to have a reason to throw the thermometer back in the drawer. I loved the carefree relations Hubby and I could once again share. Much like the arrival of summer though, I started to get antsy.

I spent so much time focused on operation baby. What the heck am I supposed to do now? It isn't that I don't have things. I could crochet. I could work with my plants, or write. I could walk, swim, whatever I want. Still, I find myself curled up on the couch with my frustration level mounting.

School will start in a few weeks and I will walk back into the double doors. This year I will not only be helping teach, I will be taught. I am certain that my idle hands will feel more at ease then. I have lots of things planned for the summer. I am working two days a week with my babies at church. Mom and I are making many trips to Amish country for fresh veggies to put up for winter. Dad made me a box for the balcony so I can grow my own fresh veggies too.

How do you pass the time when you take a break or find yourself stuck in the cabin?


eden said...

Hey there, Arian.

Summer break. Lucky I have a bag stuffed full of goodies and Australiana treasures your class would have loved! I suck, soz. I should be able to send it to you for your NEXT class.

Cabin fever, when it strikes me ... playing Mario on DS. Totally shuts my head up, I love it. (Hey ... why don't you join hubbie in his gamimg fun? If you can't beat em, etc)

Love to you mate.


Kristin said...

Sorry you are feeling so antsy. I read, crochet, cross stitch, or design when cabin fever starts in.

Sorry the computer situation sucks.

alicia said...

boo cabin fever! sorry it is being a hard summer so far! I think you have some good plans though! but it can be hard to get off the couch! try to plan some date nights with hubby or something!